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Post by Avery on Jun 8, 2015 3:37:59 GMT
"I'm fine,"
"You're lying." she murmurs automatically, detecting the small change in his voice and head tilting at the small sound. "I can tell." Feeling around with one hand, she sets the bowl on the table by the bed, bread untouched "Come here." she murmurs, turning to lie down on her side, patting the mattress beside her "Please?"
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Ilragorn
Jun 8, 2015 13:26:38 GMT
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Post by X'zayvean on Jun 8, 2015 13:26:38 GMT
"You're lying. I can tell."
His jaw ticked, but he didn't murmur a word, hand moving from his jaw to the back of his neck.
"Come here. Please?"
Zay studied her closely, hand falling from the back of his neck to his lap as he lifted his head up. He hesitated, though slowly stood and moved over to the edge of the bed, sitting down a minute later.
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Jun 8, 2015 13:41:57 GMT
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Post by Avery on Jun 8, 2015 13:41:57 GMT
Feeling the bed dip, she reaches out to see if he's laying there, small pause when she finds he isn't. Eyes closing a moment, she exhales before sitting up, forcing herself to her feet, damned if her legs are asleep. Gritting her teeth, she sways a moment then starts making her way forward, using her hands and nose to move around. Finding the door thanks to the smell of smoke from the fire, she leans against the frame a moment, resting
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Jun 8, 2015 13:54:41 GMT
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Post by X'zayvean on Jun 8, 2015 13:54:41 GMT
Zay watched her, frowning as the crease of worry returned to his forehead as he stood slowly, jaw working again. "What's wrong?" His voice came out as a low rumble, rough and tired.
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Post by Avery on Jun 8, 2015 20:59:08 GMT
"I wish to go outside, and you need to rest, if you're going to leave." Avery murmurs, voice quiet but also somewhat angry, passes through to the next room, hands held out in front of her to ensure she doesn't run into anything, finds the doorway within moments, exits the cabin, stopping when she feels grass brush her feet and sun her face
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Post by X'zayvean on Jun 8, 2015 21:07:48 GMT
"I wish to go outside, and you need to rest, if you're going to leave."
Zay started walking, then shook his head and trotted after her, pausing just outside the door. "Do you really think I'm going to leave you alone after that?" He struggled to keep his voice even, feeling the emotions boiling inside as memories started resurfacing, one by one. A short and quiet bark of a laugh escaped as he shook his head slightly again, eyes trained on her. "I may be cold," the word was quiet, short, as his voice lowered while he continued, "but I'm not heartless."
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Post by Avery on Jun 8, 2015 21:13:40 GMT
"Do you really think I'm going to leave you alone after that? I may be cold, but I'm not heartless."
"You're acting like you are, you're returning back to the way you were before." Avery murmurs, eyes closing, voice tense, basking in the sun a moment "You aren't cold, X'zayvean. But you aren't exactly warm at the time either." sighing, she turns to face the direction his voice came from "You don't want to be heartless? Fine. Fetch me my sword."
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Post by X'zayvean on Jun 8, 2015 22:03:22 GMT
"You're acting like you are, you're returning back to the way you were before."
His jaw worked for a moment as he listened, something flickering across his gaze.
"You aren't cold, X'zayvean. But you aren't exactly warm at the time either."
Zay looked away, opening his mouth to speak, but doesn't. Because when I'm close, everything freezes and is stripped away, he wanted to admit. He wanted to explain everything, but he didn't have the courage, nor the heart, to do so.
"You don't want to be heartless? Fine. Fetch me my sword."
"What do you want it for?" he asked, voice wavering slightly as he fought to keep even headed.
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Post by Avery on Jun 8, 2015 22:10:13 GMT
"What do you want it for?"
"To fight. I'm a knight, and you a rogue." Avery states firmly, arms crossing over her chest "You win, you can do whatever you please. Stay, leave, which ever pleases you. I win, you stop being the way you are now. I'm still the same Avery, so I don't see why you're acting this way. I. Didn't. Die."
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Post by X'zayvean on Jun 8, 2015 22:20:06 GMT
"To fight. I'm a knight, and you a rogue."
A sharp sound escaped Zay's throat. "Not a fair fight." He fell quiet again, gaze trained somewhere beyond the trees.
"You win, you can do whatever you please. Stay, leave, which ever pleases you. I win, you stop being the way you are now."
"Avery," he murmured lowly.
I'm still the same Avery, so I don't see why you're acting this way. I. Didn't. Die."
"It doesn't matter if you died or not." The word of death caught in his throat for a split moment and Zay took an uneasy breath. "Gods, it isn't that."
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Post by Avery on Jun 8, 2015 22:25:36 GMT
"Not a fair fight."
"Why not?" She snaps, composure slowly starting to slip "You doubt my abilities?"
"Avery,"
"No."
"It doesn't matter if you died or not. Gods, it isn't that."
"Then what is it? Am I unworthy of you, because of what happened? Am I ugly, can you not even look at me?" she hisses, voice cracking with pain halfway through, fists clench "Stop blaming yourself! This wasn't your fault, it was mine. I left of my own accord."
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Post by X'zayvean on Jun 8, 2015 22:35:32 GMT
"Then what is it? Am I unworthy of you, because of what happened? Am I ugly, can you not even look at me? Stop blaming yourself! This wasn't your fault, it was mine. I left of my own accord."
"Damn it, it's not you!" he snapped, twisting to face her and sweeping a hand through the air to dismiss the idea. A line of ice rose near his feet, sending a chilled breeze through the air, and his jaw ticked, breaths shaky. "No, it's not you." Zay hesitated, trying to reign everything in before it grew out of hand on his end. "Everyone I have ever loved, ever cared for, has been hurt or killed because of me. This may not have been my fault, but by the gods it's salt in the wound. A reminder to me that anything that I could ever want in life could never last." His voice faltered for the first time as he spoke, his emotions showing through more than they ever had.
"After everything I've seen, everything I've been through," by now, his reins were loose, having never spoken about what kept brewing inside, "this frozen heart will not thaw. I have tried for years, trying to just let it go, but nothing. Ever. Changes."
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Post by Avery on Jun 8, 2015 23:19:22 GMT
"Damn it, it's not you! No, it's not you. Everyone I have ever loved, ever cared for, has been hurt or killed because of me. This may not have been my fault, but by the gods it's salt in the wound. A reminder to me that anything that I could ever want in life could never last."
Flinching, she listens to him silently, face flashing with sadness before she turns her head as if to look away, small tiny forced smile, shivering "Then leave." she murmurs, quiet, serious "I don't want to be a reminder to your past. The last thing I wish to do is hurt you, so leave."
"After everything I've seen, everything I've been through, this frozen heart will not thaw. I have tried for years, trying to just let it go, but nothing. Ever. Changes."
Inhaling sharply, she closes her eyes, deathly still "Your heart isn't frozen. I thought you figured that out before I left. But if not, and nothing ever changes, then change something yourself."
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Post by X'zayvean on Jun 8, 2015 23:29:57 GMT
"Then leave. I don't want to be a reminder to your past. The last thing I wish to do is hurt you, so leave."
He flinched sharply as though someone had just jabbed a knife in his chest, his breath catching.
"Your heart isn't frozen. I thought you figured that out last night. But if not, and nothing ever changes, then change something yourself."
Zay shook his head, drawing in a breath, jaw working before he sat with his elbows on his knees, hands shoving through his hair. His fingers linked behind his head and he remained deathly still-- it seemed as though he wasn't breathing. But a few beats later, his voice was hardly a whisper. "How."
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Post by Avery on Jun 8, 2015 23:48:45 GMT
"You can't stay the same as you are, as you have been. You have to change. Either yourself, or what happens around you, how you think." She murmurs quietly, eyes opening "And... And if it takes leaving me to do that, and finding someone else to thaw your heart, then do it." she states, serious
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